House showing!!!

Someone is looking at our house on Saturday! YAY! I hope they love it and make an offer!!

I met with my old manager at work this morning and it is a done deal.. I am going back! I announced it to my new team at work too. Everyone is completely understanding, so it makes me feel better about going back.

Things are starting to look up again.

Job

I talked with my manager today and she completely understands where I am coming from and has agreed that I can go back to my old department. I am so happy about this. Now, we just need to get everything arranged and determine when I will move back. It may not be until Mid-June, but at least I know that I will be going back.

I just pray that I can stay at my old job until I go off on Maternity leave and never go back!! Although, it looks like my job will be pretty secure there for even longer than that.

Well, just thought I'd share my good news! As far as TTC goes.. I am seeing EWCM and my cervix is nice and open so I imagine I will be Oing somewhat soon. Could still be a week away though haha.

Slow as a snail

Could this TTC thing go any slower?

busy, crazy

Hi there. Been a while.

My new job has been keeping me away from the internet during the work hours and it has also been keeping me very stressed. Uggh. Not really what I wanted to get in to job wise. I loved my old job and wish I would have just stayed. I found out that they are hiring 5 more people in my old department because so many have left. I also found out that they are planning to keep a team of about 20 reps in Kansas City, even with India up and running. Before I left my team, they were kinda talking about keeping a team in KC, but it wasn't a for sure deal. So, I am having a chat with my new manager tomorrow and I am going to ask if I can go back. It's going to be a hard coversation to have with her, but I hope she understands. She knows we are going through fertility treatments and that will be one of the points that I bring up to her. The stress of my job cannot be helping any with me trying to get pregnant. So, hopefully I will be going back to my old job here soon.

We have our house for sale, but no lookers yet. We have had some calls though. We won't be moving up to the farm until our house sells. If our house doesn't sell by the end of August, we are moving up anyways.

Last weekend, I played volleyball for the Corporate Challenge tournament. Corporations in the Kansas City area team up against eachother in a bunch of different events. Our ladies volleyball team got first place!! With only 5 players!!

Nothin much else is new really. We are getting closer to getting me a new car. I really would like a minivan, but I think we are going to wait to get one until we have a 2nd kid. We have been looking at the Ford Freestyle, which is a crossover vehicle. Jared and I seem to change our minds alot, so it will be interesting to see what we actually get. haha

I think I am getting somewhat close to O'ing, but who knows. I've hardly had time to think about it during the week. I took Friday off, so I have had a nice 4 day weekend which has really helped me relax and get work out of my head.

Well, that's all for now.

Engagement pics

Yesterday, I took some pics of a really good friend of mine from work and her DF. Their wedding is Oct. 6 and I will be a bridesmaid. I posted pics of her veil making last month. They are also having their professional photographer take engagement pictures, but Lesley wanted some with her mom and their dogs, so I agreed to take some. We had a great time and I think I got some great shots. Here are some of my favorites:

Lesley and Taylor

We're moving!!

We are moving back to the farm where we lived when Abby was conceived and before we bought our home.
The couple that took our place on the farm decided that it was time to move on as well. As you all know, Jared and I have been contemplating selling our house, in fact we had it for sale in January. We will be in our home 1 year on May 23rd.

We talked with the family that owns the farm tonight and they are just thrilled about us coming back. They are letting me get new carpet and linoleum and we are going to re-do some of the master bathroom. We are excited about going back. We are not looking forward to selling our house and actually moving, but it will be nice when we are all settled back in there. We are comitting to at least 2-3 years of living there. Chores were kind of a pain, but it's definately not the worst thing in the world and it is worth the free home.

This will now give us the option to start a business, if we still want to go that route. Well, need to start packing and need to get our house for sale!

The best thing is.. I will have my Ted back!!! He will of course still be their horse, but I can pretend that he is mine ;)

Jared and I know that God provided this home for us when we initially moved there. I have sometimes felt that Jared and I made a rushed decision in buying our home when we did, I have also had the idea on occasion that we have not been blessed with a pregnancy because we are not in the right place and we didn't pray enough or listen to God enough when we moved from the farm. I feel as if God is making the farm available for us again and I hope we are blessed because of it. Please pray that our house sells quickly. I know that if it is God's will, he will provide a buyer for it.

Break

Well, I just talked to my Dr's nurse and she thinks I should take a month off. The main reason is because my fertile time will fall on Memorial Day weekend and they are closed that weekend and won't be able to do an IUI for me. They also will only give me 3 cycles on the meds (which was news to me) and they want me to have the best shot at our next cycle, so we are taking this month off of meds. We will be trying all naturale again. If AF comes, we will start the meds again on my next cycle and do an IUI. If that doesn't work, I have no idea what our next step will be.

I don't really know how I feel about this. I am disappointed, but kind of happy at the same time. I know the Lord's timing is everything and perhaps this is all a part of his plan. I know he is listening to our prayers! Thank you so much for your continued support. I was hoping this stuff would have worked by now.

I bought some pregnancy tests off of ebay this morning. I am getting 30 test strips for $9.25. That comes out to a little less that 30 cents per test. hahaha I can't wait till they get here and I can go crazy with testing.

Edited to add.. I called my nurse back because I forgot to ask her for my progesterone results and they were 22.4!!! WOOHOO!!!

I talked to her a little more about the medications we could try and also clarified the "3 cycles" thing. She said that they will only give the oral medications for 3 months. If there is no success, I will go back in for a consultation with the Dr. and we will talk about other different medication options, such as follistim. These would require me to give myself shots for a period of days and they have a very high chance of multiples. Chances are increased by 30-40%, compared to Clomid's 5-10%.

She thinks that the Dr. will try me on a different medication next cycle called Femara. It is very similar to Clomid, except that it will not affect my lining. I have googled Femara in the past because I knew this was a possibility and I was finding some scary stuff on it, but she assured me that those studies are done on women who are already pregnant, where I would be taking it before a pregnancy occurs. That made me feel a little better.

So, that is our plan now. Pray that we just get a BFP on our break cycle!!!

BFN again

I tested again this morning, even though I saw a little pink in my CM. It was a BFN, of course. AF hasn't started full force yet. I doubt it will until tomorrow. Once it starts full force, I will make a call into my Dr. and figure out what we'll be doing for this cycle.

I know the Lord will bless us soon. Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. I know God is listening because I have felt at such peace the past few days, even though I knew that AF was imminent.

I will post, once we have our game plan for this cycle in place.

BBQ Pics

I posted most the pictures from Mother's day on Our Pictures website, but I will post my favorites here:

My MIL, Judy

My brother Brian and SIL Lisa

Me and Andrew

My mom and dad

Jared

My niece and nephew Ashley and Andrew

Andrew

Mom

My sister's MIL, Michelle

Happy Mother's Day!

Here is my Mother's Day gift:

Yes, I tested early. I have had some crazy sore bbs the past couple days and yesterday evening was the worst. Even going to bed, it was uncomfortable to lay on them. I never get this sore of bbs in the 2WW, so I caved. I have no idea why my bbs are so sore, but it obviously is not because I am pg. Well, crap.

I had a bad night on Thursday. Because I knew I wasn't pg this month. As you all know, I am psycho about checking CM and CP, well, my CM started drying up just as it always does before AF. I got in a bad mood and told Jared that I just want to give up. I am so sick of infertility and I feel like the fertility meds are not going to help us. We talked and Jared put my head back on straight and told me that we are not giving up, that we are just at the beginning of the fertility treatments, there are so many more things that we can try. I know he was right, but there is just this fear that we will try all of these treatments and none of them will work.

I can't really describe it, but it is one of the most stressful, depressing things that I have ever gone through. Then I get these sore bbs and think I still may have a chance. uggh.

Well, I don't really know what our next step will be. I do know that whatever meds they put me on, I will be asking to start the IUI's on this next cycle. They may keep me on Clomid or they may try something else that will not thin my lining. I will call my Dr, once AF is here and discuss it at that time.

Sorry for my venting this morning. I hope all of you Mom's have a wonderful day!! We are having family over to our place for a BBQ, so I will be sure and take lots of pics and post some here.

2WW

This 2WeekWait thing really gets old. I have absolutely nothing fun to talk about, but I figured I should post since it's been a week.

We have had buckets and buckets and more buckets of rain dumped on us in the past couple days. We have finally got a little break from it. My in-laws basement had some water in it yesterday. They are out of town right now so Jared and I had to clean it up. Jared competed in a half-iron man on Sunday but it was cancelled when he was on about mile 24 of the bike, because of the rain and storms, so he came home early. I'm so glad I didn't go with him as I would have been soaked.

Well, I am 5 or 6 days past O. I have been so busy at work but it still seems like this 2WW is creeping by. Ughh. Hopefully it will pick up.

Really no symptoms yet but it is still a tad early for those. I did get a cold sore this morning on my lip. May or may not mean anything.

Testing will be next Wednesday and I have my blood drawn for the progesterone check on Friday.

Since a post is no fun without a pic, I will show one that I took of the dogs and then messed with on photoshop. I seriously need to learn how to use photoshop better.