Kittens

I wanted to post this in my below post but for some reason, it wouldn't let me add this pic.

There are 2 of the friendliest and cutest kittens at the barn as well. If I had my own barn, I would be taking them there with me. I like the one on the left the best.

Middle of the 2WW

So, I am caught in the middle of the 2WW. It's going well so far. I am thinking of testing on Sunday. I will be 12 DPO at that point. I'm feeling pretty good about this cycle. But, you know how that goes.
I just realized today that when I conceived with Abby, the Dr's first told me that my due date was June 12th. (My birthday). They were not taking into account my late O date. However, if we base my EDD on my O date this month, I would be due on June 12th again! WOW, how ironic. Hopefully this will be our lucky month again.
If it is, I have a wonderful idea of how to announce it to our families. I love coming up with different ways to announce it each month. What I would do is dress up like a pg lady on halloween and go trick-r-treat at all the fam's houses. I would have Jared video tape when they answer the door. I love it and hope I get to use that this month!!
Ted is doing great. I need to get down there and give the guy a bath. Probably will tomorrow. He is filthy. Him and Abu have sure been sticking together lately. I went to see Ted this afternoon and he and Abu were way off from the rest of the herd. I think they like being back together. It was great going to see them both again. It's neat seeing them in the same pasture.

Ted still hasn't had his feet done. At first, the barn manager, Steve told us the farrier was coming last Thursday. Then it was supposed to be this morning. Well, still no sign of the farrier. So, I'm not sure when he will come.
The pic above is the day I moved Ted to the new barn. He looks really white and bright in the picture but, he really is dirty. I think it's just the sun reflecting off of his coat.

There are a ton of cats at the barn as well. One of the momma cats just had her litter of 5 kittens. I found them on Friday afternoon in the back corner of the tack room.

O-Day

Today is my O day. Hoping we catch it this month. I am using Preseed again. A couple more weeks and we should know!
I am taking vitamin B6 this cycle in hopes to extend my luteal phase a little bit. I have an 11 day luteal phase as it is. They say you have to have at least 10 days in order to keep a fertilized egg. Mine is adequate but, I figure adding an extra day or 2 won't hurt.
Hoping this is what will take place inside me very soon:

As far as other things go.. I did get Ted back and he is doing well. His feet are pretty ugly but, fixable. He is very chubby as well. He had some ugly scabs on his nose but after just one application of some cortizone cream, those are basically gone. His tail is alot shorter than it used to be too. Hopefully that can grow out long again like it used to be. Since he has been to the new barn, he's had quite a few kick and bite marks but, he'll be fine. I think the other horses will become bored of chasing him around the pasture soon as he doesn't offer to challenge anyone. He just runs away when someone comes after him. Other than that, he is doing very good and I love taking care of him again.

Some people from the barn were planning on a ride tonight and I would love to go with them. I am kinda worried about Ted's feet but, I may try him out. If he starts acting sore or tender, I will turn around and come back. Hopefully the trails are nice and smooth though with no rocks.

Well, I will type more later. Hopefully I will have good news in a couple more weeks!

Ted

I may be getting Ted back! I "gave" Ted to the Ward family when Jared and I moved off the farm, after the lease with the Therapeutic Riding Center fell through. Jared and I were unsure if we could pay to keep a horse so, we made the decision to either sell him or give him to our friends.
Now, almost 6 months later, we have come to the conclusion that a horse maybe could fit into the budget. There are some other reasons that I want to get him back but, I won't go into them right now..
I still need to talk with Brian or Gina to see if they are willing to give him back but, I have no doubts that they will let me have him.
I am so excited to be getting my horse back.
If this does go through, my bike will be put for sale. I had alot of fun riding it but, we could use that extra money right now. Also, the time I was spending riding it could now be spent with Teddy.
Ted will be put at the same barn as Abu so, they will be reunited again. I love my boys!!

Been a while..

I guess I have been busy lately.
This past weekend was the MS-150. Jared rode the first day but had a bad crash. He finished the ride but we came home that night and slept in our own bed, instead of camping out. He's ok but, was pretty sore and bruised for a couple days. He even cracked his helmet. Poor guy.
Obi and Princess are doing well. They went to the beauty shop last night for grooming. They always love that :)
Nothin much else is new.. I'll post again later.

5 Years!

Today is our 5 year Wedding Anniversary. 5 years goes by pretty darn fast. Although our wedding seems like it was quite some time ago, I remember it like it was yesterday. It was the best day of my life.

I can imagine when we have a baby, we can add another "best day of my life" to the list. The day I met Jared was also one of the best days of my life. We have had some awesome times together, more than what I deserve. Jared is the best husband that any woman could ask for and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I ask God when I pray to let Jared and I be able to live long lives together and that we can have children and watch them grow to get married and have children of their own.
I am excited for our days ahead and can't wait to experience some of life's greatest joys in the years to come. But, for now.. I am savoring our moments and loving every bit of them.

Not this month

No luck again. I made an appoinment with my midwife for my yearly checkup for September 22. I will be a few days past ovulation at that point so, we can discuss TTC and what steps to take if Jared and I go past a year or so with no luck. I know it will happen at some point so, I am just trying to be patient and wait it out. We have 1 tube of preseed left and will plan on using that again this month.
Hopefully I will get my new bike soon. I can't wait to ride on it.
Jared and I will be going to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner tomorrow night for our anniversary. I am excited and looking forward to it!

Only a few more days..

until we find out if this month was a bust or a success. These last few days of the dreaded "two week wait" are the worst.
Jared and I, in the past have touched lightly on the subject of getting me a road bike. We shopped for them on Saturday at the Bike Stop and found one that was a great deal but, still a little out of our price range on what we were wanting to spend. Here is a pic of the one that we may get, if we cannot find a cheaper one that we like:

It comes in RED too but, I like the black better.
Nothing much else is new. I will post again in a few more days with an update in the TTC department.

3 DPO

Today I am about 3 DPO. Could be 4 but, I am not sure if I O'd on Thursday or Friday. I plan on testing on our 5 year anniversary. AF will be a couple days late at that point. I am hoping AF holds off so I can test without Jared knowing about it. We plan on going out to dinner that evening and I would love to present a gift to Jared at dinner and have the positive pregnancy test wrapped inside. We'll see if my wonderful plan plays out this way.
Jared and I have been working on a slide show to show to our families for our anniversary. I am hoping I can announce a pregnancy at the end of the slide show but, it would still be neat without it.
I quit my job at Motherhood Maternity, after 1 day. HAHA. For a variety of reasons but, mainly just because I don't want a 2nd job. Although, I may start cleaning some houses with Jenny but, it would be different because it would be on my own time and I would be with Jenny. We would have fun and it would be enjoyable.
I am feeling pretty good about this cycle. We timed it just right and the preseed will hopefully help out. Of course, God will bless us with a baby, when it's his time. I just hope it is this time!!

+OPK!!!

Yesterday when I got home from work, I took another OPK. This was my 3rd day of taking one. The previous 2 were negative and I really wasn't expecting to get a positive until Friday'ish. Well, much to my surprise, it was positive! Hopefully that means that I will O today or tomorrow.
Let's hope the Preseed helps us out this cycle and God chooses to bless us with a pregnancy!

Motherhood Maternity

I have recently accepted a new, part time job with Motherhood Maternity. I was supposed to go in last night for my first shift but, something with my application did not go through with HR so, I can't actually go in to work until that is straightened out.
I will get a 30% discount after I have worked there for 90 days. I am hoping I will start needing maternity clothes once that 90 days comes!
We plan on using the preseed for the first time on Thursday. I am not expecting to ovulate until Saturday. I am using the ovulation predictor kits again this month. So far they have been light but I can tell they are becoming increasingly darker.
I am so ready to be pregnant again, it is not even funny.

St. Louis this weekend

Jared and I are making a trip to St. Louis this weekend. Gary and Judy will also be going but, we may be taking separate cars. One of Jared's buddies from College got married in March and he and his new wife are having a reception from friends and family from this area. We'll stay the night there and make a short vacation out of it. I am looking forward to going. It's always fun to stay a night away.
I got my preseed and free pregnancy test strip last week. I am really excited to use it this month. I plan on using Ovulation Predictor tests as well so we will know when it is the best time to use the preseed. The last time I used the OPK's, I got my first + the day before I ovulated. So, once I get a + this time, we will not BD that night but, we will the following night and of course, use the preseed. This should all take place next weekend (the 19th-20th) approximately.
I really hope it works this month!!

preseed

Well, "you know who" came to pay me yet another visit so, I am in the TTC game again this month. Jared and I are really getting antsy to get pregnant again. It took us 4 months with Abby and now we are on our 5th month trying again.
I had been hearing some great success stories from different women who have used a product called "Preseed" when TTC.

It is a personal lubricant that is "sperm friendly" and actually helps with the TTC process. Ladies have disucssed it on different online forums and I would say about 80-90% who used it, got pregnant the first month they used it. I am really getting excited to try it out this month and see if we have the same luck.
Of course, I know God determines when Jared and I will be blessed again but, perhaps the Lord made this product available to help us achieve another pregnancy.

Drooling

On Sunday, I went to church at New Jerusalem because mom, Lori and I sang. After we sang, I sat next to Brian, Lisa, Ashley and Andrew. Ashley had her baby doll with her and I played with her quietly for a little bit. While I had my head tilted down, I drooled. I didn't think too much of it at the time. It's just one of those embarassing things that happen; however, while I was talking with my coworker, Mia this morning, I drooled again. What in the world??? It all the sudden dawns on me that I have read before that increased saliva is an early pregnancy symptom! I sure hope so; otherwise, I can be named drooling idiot lately.
Today, Jared signed up for the Iron Man in Coure D'Lane, ID that takes place in June next year. He also booked us a hotel in the area. We will be driving our truck and I hope we have a baby to take along with us. Gary and Judy will probably make the trek with us but, that is still left to be determined.
I will be testing on Monday, July 31, as long as "you know who" hasn't graced me with her presence. "She'll" be a couple days late at that point. I'm hoping "She" takes a LONG vacation.
Wish me lots of luck and Baby Dust!

2 DPO

I am approximately 2 DPO (days past ovulation) today. I really hope we conceived this cycle.

I am not taking my basal body temperature every morning this month. I feel a little more laid back now and I am hoping that will help things. I am starting to feel like I will never see a positive pregnancy test again.

Nothing much is new. Jenny and Chris just bought a home and we moved them in this past weekend.

Other than that, things are pretty much the same. Hoping I can post that I am pregnant on here in a couple weeks!

I'm Home

I returned to Kansas City yesterday at 8:30 PM. I am so glad to be home. I missed Jared so much. My vacation was great though.
The wedding was gorgeous. Jessie was such a beautiful bride! Her and Nathan were so happy.
I was able to spend alot of time with my good friend, Shannon. It was nice to catch up with her. The 4th of July was also alot of fun. Being in my old hometown brought back lots of memories. I met up with quite a few people who I hadn't seen in a really long time.
Jared and I are currently in the works of buying a new truck. We sold the Xterra a couple weeks ago and have only had 1 car since then. We found a truck in Rolla, MO that we are planning to pick up on Saturday. Looks like I'll be off on another trip here soon.

Abigail's Due Date

Today is the day that Abigail was "Due". I can only imagine what my life would be like right now, if our baby girl had made it. I would either be holding my brand new baby or still could be hugely pregnant. How I wish that precious girl would have made it. It is so heartbreaking.
It seems like forever ago that I was still pregnant and carrying her. It's been almost 5 months since I delivered her.
I can't wait to be pregnant again with her brother or sister but, somedays, it feels like it will never happen.

"Precious Abby,
I hope you know that mommy loves you very much. I think about you all day, every day. I miss you so much. Today marks the day that we were supposed to meet. I would have loved to carry you for these full "9 months" and give birth to you. I would have loved to see your daddy hold you and kiss you. The day we would have brought you home would have been one of the happiest days of my life. We would have struggled through our first few weeks together as a new family but, we would have grown so close together and made so many memories.
Abby, I wish things would have been different but, I have accepted what God has given to me. I know he has a plan for you and I. We will meet again one day and that is something to look forward to. I love you, I love you, I love you.
Love, Mommy."

Frusterated

I have gone from beliving I was pg to not, all within 24 hours. I got a positive pregnancy test yesterday, Sunday June 25th. Or,at least what Jared and I both thought was a positive test. I was planning on waiting until Wednesday the 28th but, my impatience got the best of me and I tested early.
I awoke this morning and my temperature had dropped and I tested negative on a pregnancy test.
Right now, I don't know where I stand. Only time will tell. I am hoping by some miraculous way that I still turn out to be pregnant but, all signs are pointing to "NO WAY".
I am so excited to leave on Friday for Oregon!

1 more week!

In 1 week from today, I will be leaving KC and heading to Portland for a short vacation. My cousin, Jessie is getting married and I am so excited to attend the blessed event! Jessie was like a younger sister to me and I am so happy for her. My sister and I will be flying out together. My parents may be joining us but, they are still deciding between flying or driving. We arrive in Portland on Friday afternoon on June 30th. We will head to Bend/Sunriver on Saturday morning and spend some time with my mom's good friend, Sally. She has horses and I am so excited to see them! We will then attend the rehearsal dinner and other wedding things later that afternoon. Sunday is the big day and that will be jammed full of all sorts of wedding festivities. We will head back to Portland after the wedding and reception on Sunday night. I will spend Monday and Tuesday (the 4th of July) in Corbett and then head home on Wednesday. I am really excited to see alot of family and friends!

I am hoping that I will get a positive pregnancy test before we leave.

Next Wednesday, June 28th was Abby's due date. I am hoping we can celebrate that day with a new pregnancy, a brother or sister to our little angel. I will be testing either that day (if I can hold out that long) or possibly some time this weekend.

Wish me luck!
This is a picture of Jessie in her wedding gown

My birthday!

Today is my birthday and I am at work to celebrate :( We had a good weekend though. Saturday started with me going to our church to help out with a priesthood luncheon. I left there around 11:30 and went to the Condo to meet my sis and mom. We left to go to lunch shortly after that. My mom wanted to keep the restaurant a surprise but, I kinda had an idea of where we were headed. But, we got to the restaurant and my friend Lesley was there and Judy, Lisa, Ashley and Andrew. We went to this cute little restaurant on the Independence Square called "Girlfriends". They had a dress up room filled with girly things to wear and dress up in. Ashley just loved it. The food wasn't the best but, we had a great time.
Later that evening, we went to dinner with my parents and Jenny and Chris at On the Border. YUM! On the way home, we stopped to see Abu. He is doing well and looks great.
Sunday, we got up early and headed over to Kansas for the Kansas City Corporate Challenge triathlon. Jared competed in the team triathlon and was 3rd out of the water. Princess made the trip with us and as always, she was a little Princess.
We didn't make it to church as we were too late getting back. Instead, we took the Xterra to be washed and then brought it home and cleaned it up. We took pics of it so we can put it for sale soon.
After all that, I took a shower and fell asleep on our bed for a 2 hour nap and awoke at 4. Around 5, we left to go eat at Waldo Pizza then headed up to the Kempers to get some mail that had been delivered, after we had moved. We chatted with Dana and Aaron for just a couple minutes and then went and fed the horses some carrots.
That pretty much sums up our weekend. I believe we are going to eat with Gary and Judy tonight.